It’s been just more than a year since my last post. Such a shame to realize that I’ve neglected my work. But…I suppose I can use “2020” as my excuse. Heaven knows it’s a doozy. This will be brief and maybe even sound a little on the dark side but it is meant to open people’s eyes and minds to the seriousness of where we stand in this lifetime.
Our world is in trouble. Sickness has infected our minds, hearts, and souls. A pandemic has held the world a prisoner, greed has consumed so many. Selfishness, arrogance, hatred, sloth…Do any of these words bring instant thoughts to mind? If so please share below.
It is the year of fear and it will very soon be passing us by. It is the aftermath that we must now concern ourselves with. Darkness is upon us and we must be strong. We must find the courage and we must bond together as one, unite together, for the greater good. If 2020 has been the year of fear then let’s make 2021 the year of overcoming. May you be blessed in body, mind, and Spirit.
I’ve been trying to do this the wrong way for so long that I’ve buried myself in a ton of data and tormented my brain thinking that I had to get it out to the public in just the right way.
I finally realized that there is no right way, the way is to just do it. I have pages and pages of notes for a book I have yet to complete, I have pages and pages of notes for classes that I’ve still not completed, I have tons of ideas for study programs and recovery programs, and spiritual development programs….that have not been completed.
Why? Good question. I think I have finally found the answer. I’ve been held down by my owm depression, anxiety, frustration, heartbreak, drama, chaos, and torment all activated by my deep seeded emotions and connection toward a person who is a narcissist.
I feel like such a hypocrite. How dare I accept the responsibility to help others when I myself am living a lie. Or is it a lie? Is it a lie because I don’t openly devolve my own trauma yet I advise others on how to resolve their own?
Recently there were several events in my life that open the door and allowed the brightest light I’ve ever seen to shine through. So bright that it blinded me and afterward I have been able to see more clearly than ever before.
Most of the procrastination on moving forward with my dreams and goals and work is due to my beliefs. Our beliefs can cripple us, they can imprison us in negative feelings and emotions and eventually create the world we actually live in. Why?
Because our beliefs are part of our thoughts and our thoughts can, in reality, create actual events. Our thoughts create the world around us. They are truly that powerful.
For more than half of my life, I have believed that I had to always be the helper, the fixer, the motivator, the warrior, the mother figure, the do it all person, for everyone, no matter what it was. I think it was because from the age of six I was a mother figure for my siblings, and I became an adult at a very early age because of the dysfunctional family life that we lived in.
After my 30th birthday, I knew I had to change the path I was on and that things just weren’t working the way they were supposed to. It was a deep, deep knowing, in my gut that kept saying, “This isn’t right you must make a change.”
I realized I was actually enabling other people to the point they never did anything on their own. I was devoured by their messy lives and their problems while never being able to take care of my own. Because I believed that was what I was supposed to do.
Then I realized that it’s okay to help others, but to just keep doing it for them smoothers you and actually robs you of your own life. You have to let them go, eventually, and live your life, your way.
My beliefs from childhood had robbed me of so many years of independence that I was afraid of what would happen when I finally did, acknowledge, accept, and activate a new plan in my life.
Now at the age of 58, I’m coming into my true self. It feels good and yes, I still have a little of that fear, in the back of my mind, but….it keeps me processing the emotions, feelings, and beliefs and understanding them better.
I hope as this site is now in the processof coming alive and will be used to share important information with others, that you will share the link with those whom you think may recieve a positive message.
Until tomorrow, Love and Light, Blessings to you all.
We are not the same person we were when we first came here on the day we were born. We have learned and grown continuously since that first breath.
Through every event that you have experienced, you have changed and are a different person than the one who began that journey.
Throughout the storms of life we have also grown in courage and wisdom, we are not the same person we were when we started school, got married, had children, lost a loved one, experienced a broken heart or walked into battle.
Life is about change and we change constantly. We grow, we learn, we evolve and we do this on all levels.
Body, Mind, and Spirit.
I am not the same person I was yesterday because something happened yesterday, something somewhere, somehow, in some way that changed me.
I will not be the same person tomorrow as I am today. My beliefs will change, my emotions will change and my heart will change.
My hope is that I will grow stronger, wiser, more confident and know that I am responsible for “me”, who I am and who I will be for the journey of life I have here.
Even though we are all different, we are the same. We all change. ~Author, Sherryl Craig, LCBT~ 2019.
This is from the book “SunRise and Coffee,” that I’m writing and hope to publish in 2020.